One small step for Abby, one giant leap for her anxious state of mind…
Today I am writing my first ever blog post. It feels like ripping off a band aid, but i feel compelled to do it in a way i cant really explain. Maybe its because ive been thinking on it for a while, and ive finally got tired of my own inner monologue, but im doing the thing. Im doing it and even if its weird and feels crazy, im getting out of my comfort zone and taking that leap of faith.
I tell myself as i type away, sipping my dairy-free mocha and anxiously tapping my foot against the coffee table: “no one’s gonna read it anyway, no one actually cares, so why are you even scared?” which is valid tbh! No one in the world cares more about what YOU are perceived as than yourself. Every single person is wrapped up in their own bubble of thoughts about themselves. No one is thinking of you, and its never really that deep. So just do it anyway. So what if Jessica from primary school who for some reason follows you on Instagram sees that you have a blog? So what if that guy who has always viewed your story since 2017 but never actually had the balls to DM you sees that you reviewed a book you enjoyed? Literally who cares? Some people might read this, a lot of people will not, and that’s completely fine. I’m doing this for me. I’m doing this because i have a passion for something and i want to put that out into the world. So here I go! (lol)
For my first post, i want to introduce myself and my intentions with this blog. My name is Abby, im 27 and live in the North-East of England. Ive lived up North my whole life, even when i went to university, i chose Newcastle like the true northerner i am <3. I studied Fine Art and found through my degree that i enjoyed writing about art rather than actually making it; I always loved researching, splurging my thoughts onto paper and then editing meticulously until i felt like i’d fully explored my thoughts. My degree also further pushed me into reading more and outside of my comfort zone with both genres and topics; For my dissertation i ended up exploring famous colonial artworks, depictions of exploring the “new world”, and dissecting how it related to the sci-fi horror genre within cinema. I guess that’s what i love most about reading - it reveals to you a fascination you never would have thought you had. Every book you read is a chance to learn something new, to develop yourself as a human being, to better understand anything and everything.
Following graduation, i found myself making less and less time not just for reading, but for all my passions in general. I graduated straight into the Covid-19 pandemic and felt like I lost all my freedom to create and passion to do anything fun during what should have been one of the most exciting times of my life. Eventually, I did find my way back to reading these past couple of years and its felt so good to make time for it. I started posting my reviews and what im reading on Fable which i love so much, but i found myself wanting to expand more on my thoughts, hence the creation of all abby reads! Maybe its because i have so many stressful things occupying my time this year, that i have felt this deep urge to go for it and find this escape from the every day. This blog is my space to write and just be me, away from all the noise of the everyday.
My goal is to post weekly updates on what im currently reading, my broader thoughts and feelings on the content ive been consuming, and to also do a final wrap-up review of books once ive finished them. I have no idea how im going to manage my time with having a full-time job, moving house, planning a wedding, and attempting to maintain a social life, but if this is something I enjoy doing its gonna have to stick. Basically, its now or never! And it just cant be never because its too sad to not even try :)
All my love,
Abby
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